Nothing Snazzy to Say

I wish I could think of a snappy title, something that could some up how we feel or how the day went. The honest truth is Cole and I both left Kosair's this evening pretty sad and beat up. David didn't eat as well as he has in the past and probably more than that we are just getting frustrated. We so badly want to take our baby boy home and have him in our house putting him in his bed not a warmer or a crib that the hospital has. We know this is part of the process and we are still relatively early in the process and that others are in worse shape than we are at the moment. We appreciate all of those sentiments but in the end we say good bye to our boy every night and drive away and that breaks our hearts.

I think we are longing for sense or normalcy and routine to life outside of waiting to be buzzed into the NICU or eating cafeteria food.

So that is where we are at right now, David began to eat better before we left which made us feel some better and we are happy that Jessie got to hold him today for the first time and we are excited that Beth will be able to hold him as soon as she can get up there. We also know that these feelings will subside/go away in time and that one day these feelings will be a distant memory as we laugh and love on David in our home but right now it is the world we live within.

It is a constant reminder that how thankful I am for Nicole. I distinctly remember on our wedding day we promised to have and to hold, to forsake all others, for better or for worse and I know that as we are going through some of our "for worse" right now that my love and appreciation for Nicole continually deepens.

So tonight I beg you to pray for us, for our spirits to be uplifted but more than that I ask that you continually pray for David, for his eating habits and for his heart.

Also the pic of the day is up in the last blog post which is a great pic of mom and David loving time.

-D